Purely skin deep

A thing of joy is a beauty forever,

It's loveliness increase,

It will never pass into nothingness.

Beauty is truth's smile.............-> KEATS<-

Well a thing of beauty is a joy forever.This doesn't mean outside beauty.Beauty is a short-lived.The outter beauty fades away with time but the soul,spirit and the greatness of oneself has no affect whatsoever from time.But somepeople doesnt realize that.

I was and isolated kid growing up haunted by my own fears of not being able to be great or perfect or cool. I looked up to my elders and I saw that they were important great and lovable-> everything I was not.Im my mind I was led to beleive that whatever I did it will never be enough for anyone and that thought scared me to my last intact nerves. But I lived my life as if nothing was wrong.Acted as if I was a fun person I was a pretender for most of my life.Then i met a guy and he made me feel like my own person .

I learnt to accept myself.Thought I might be so chubby and ugly and all he gave me a chance and showed me my inner beauty.And then I wasnt scared.I figured out I 'd rather be the girl who loves herself and is satisfied with everything allah gave to me. I m thankful that I have a bed to sleep in and food to eat and a family that watches out for me.Of course that guy is no longer arnd but allah is with me till the end of time and by bringin me to life he showed me that yes..I am special to him no matter even If I ain't special to anyone else.It kinda sucks that he is no longer there but he played his part well so I thank him...