Heart full of hatred.I have been hurted like hell but I have always smiled no matter what and tried to just be cool.But never forgot the things that lie inside still that never stops the hurt so ............yamin....

Voice beyond the shadows.

The Cycle of Addiction
No one intends to become a drug addict or alcoholic. Our experiences show that the drug addict or alcoholic was usually an intelligent and often creative person with much hope for the future.






However, they were unable to deal effectively with life’s problems and turned to drugs or alcohol as a means of dealing with unwanted situationsThe person usually takes drugs because they attempt to compensate for some personal deficiency or life situation. They may be depressed, in pain or incapable of dealing with a loss of a loved one or extreme circumstance. It could also be as simple as a need to fit in and make friends, or a way to lose weight. Regardless of the reason, the person begins to seek "help" in the form of drugs or alcohol






Drugs are essentially a pain-killer. They lessen emotional and physical pain and provide the user with a temporary escape from problems. When a person is unable to cope with something in life and take drugs as a result, they feel they have found a way to deal with the problem.They are now addicted. They become difficult to communicate with, withdrawn and begin to exhibit the strange behavior associated with being on drugs. The more the person uses to try to counter this effect, the more desperate he becomes




Their use begins to affect their personal relationships, their job, their bank account, and anything of previous value to the addict. Now the person's entire focus becomes centered on using drugs and getting more drugs, regardless of the cost. They sacrifice everything to avoid the pain of withdrawal, the guilt of what they have done and the problems they have been running from




At this point, the average drug user does one of three things:
1.Continues using drugs and becomes more and more lost, unhealthy and degraded until he eventually becomes homeless or dead.

2.Gets arrested for some drug-related activity and goes to jail or prison.

3.Attempt to quit drugs in any one of a variety of ways. He may try to stop on his own, or go to a drug addiction treatment center or program. Sadly, the success rate of traditional treatment is not high and most addicts continue to relapse. This destroys the addict’s confidence and leads him to feel he will remain a slave to drugs forever.

All you can do is give them home and make them trust themselves and help them to overcome this addiction with ur support and love.Don't isolate them.

angel

Socially un-acceptable?

I was a creature of disgust and hatred.I could never love anyone.Thought of my onwself always .No one else.Gained unbelivalbe pwer over people and used them for my own benfit.But somehow I was always missing something and that was friendship of the highset rate. I never got it. People either became my friend to get stuff outta me or make someone do something or scare someone. I was always used in relations, In my family and by my friends. I decided to be a one woman army and didnt accept help from others just for the fact that I hated being amongst creatures of my own kind
Then I met Jille.She was a devil in disguise and just my kind.We were hybrid demons. We hung out almost always and suddenly everyone else was withdrawing from me. I used to feed off their energy and their fright.But they were full of so much fear that they just went away.Of course Jille was much more cold hearted than that to know what fear was.
Days grew shorter and nights grew longer.Time started slipping away and I was falling down fast into the well of nothingness.I felt empty and hollow.I didnt feel my heart beat for 5 years until Jille decided to move to another country and she was caught in a train accident which nearly cost her , her life but now she is barely living.Everyday she is tormented and tortured with a new kind of pill.The hospitial people treat her as if she is an experiment.
I write this because she is a mime and cannot speak in a language that all understands.But I can. I am writing this cause she can't.I am talking on behalf of her because she can't.You see right after the accident her boyfriend who was going to marry her left her saying that she is a paralysed person and that he doesn't love her anymore.An he called her a deforemed b*tch.But is it ok to call whoever u want whatever Just because we hybrids are much more advanded than u mentally does not mean we should not be socially unaccepted.Just because u fear us doesn't mean that we won't hurt you mortal human being. We will and soon the army of hybrids like myself and jille will rise and punish you immoral homo sapien sapiens.
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By:-Jummi

Land of the pure?

I have seen a lot of things in life.But one thing is a land where it is drug free.I lot of people usually tell me that Maldives is goin to hell and it sucks here but I really wonder if that is the case? I mean I really do know that we have a lot of drug addicts in Maldives but it's the people who are not addicted who are respondible for it.What I am trying to say is that Maldvies is full of so-called Muslims.But most of our parents teach us only and how to pray.THey don't bother showing us the importance of Having faith in allah neither they promote our religion much.
I think that some of our parents and society is ashamed that we are muslims and so trying to hide that fact with making a lot of us wear western clothes and all.It just goes to show that WE as Muslims and Non-addicts arent doing our part to save the population of Maldives.->MUSLIMS SHOULDN'T NOT USE SUBSTANCES LIKE ALCOHOL AND ALIKE
5 years ago in Maldives there was only 6 people with aids and all were aged between 24- 30.But right now there are more than 600 girls and boys altogether in Mal'e alone between the age 12-18.Althought the media tells everyone that Maldivians are 100% percent muslims Im not so sure abt it.->MUSLIMS SHOULD NOT HAVE PRE-MARITIAL SEX.
Not too long ago there was this incident of ishaaru (Choaty of kudahenveiru) being murdered.Let me tell you innocent people of Maldives and Government->MUSLIMS DON'T KILL OTHER MUSLIMS.
Is this the Maldivian dream we always saw. Our beautiful land turning into evil? Wake-up youth of Maldives.The time is now more than ever to take the lead and make the nation once again great just like how it was before:D

My broken wings

I know this will not remain forever

However it's beautiful

Your eyes, hands and you warm smile

They're my treasure

It's hard to forget

I wish there was a solution

Don't spend your time in confusion

I will turn back now and spread

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should I go drifting in the wind

Higher and higher in the light

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should I go drifting in the wind

Across the sky, just keep on flying

Did I ever chain you down to my heart '

Cause I was never afraid of you ?

No,I couldn't hold you any longer

Love is not a toy

Let go of me now

The time we spend is perpetual

Our future is not real

I'll leap into the air

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should I go drifting in the wind

Higher and higher in the light

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should I go drifting in the wind

Across the sky, just keep on flying

Sora kara ochitekuru no wa are wa ame de wa nakute

Purely skin deep

A thing of joy is a beauty forever,

It's loveliness increase,

It will never pass into nothingness.

Beauty is truth's smile.............-> KEATS<-

Well a thing of beauty is a joy forever.This doesn't mean outside beauty.Beauty is a short-lived.The outter beauty fades away with time but the soul,spirit and the greatness of oneself has no affect whatsoever from time.But somepeople doesnt realize that.

I was and isolated kid growing up haunted by my own fears of not being able to be great or perfect or cool. I looked up to my elders and I saw that they were important great and lovable-> everything I was not.Im my mind I was led to beleive that whatever I did it will never be enough for anyone and that thought scared me to my last intact nerves. But I lived my life as if nothing was wrong.Acted as if I was a fun person I was a pretender for most of my life.Then i met a guy and he made me feel like my own person .

I learnt to accept myself.Thought I might be so chubby and ugly and all he gave me a chance and showed me my inner beauty.And then I wasnt scared.I figured out I 'd rather be the girl who loves herself and is satisfied with everything allah gave to me. I m thankful that I have a bed to sleep in and food to eat and a family that watches out for me.Of course that guy is no longer arnd but allah is with me till the end of time and by bringin me to life he showed me that yes..I am special to him no matter even If I ain't special to anyone else.It kinda sucks that he is no longer there but he played his part well so I thank him...

Mistakes

"It is not what your deeds are that makes you,Its your mistakes"
We all are humans.We are not perfect.We make mistakes,sometimes small sometimes big. Whether it is a mistake of trusting the wrong foe or fooling a friend or simply doing soemthing absolutely stupid like videotaping ur sister's firstnight and selling it over the net.You might ask what is my point exactly? My point is when others make mistakes we don't forget or forgive easily but when we do the same mistake we expect them to forgive us easily as if its not a big deal.Why is it that we expect the things out of others that we can't even give to them? Is it a humanly flaw or somehow the effect of community on us?

->to be or not to be?

Well this is a blog due to a comment I received.sex does raise some pretty interesting questions but hey sex is not the most important thing in this world.This life is more about prayers and stuff like that but teenagers such as my self doesn't really care about the afterlife.All they care about is having fun and enjoying but these things are secondary to Allah.
The next issue is how do you really know if the guy is serious with you?...well it isn't really obvious whether or not he is really interested in you.Most of the guys just see your wee wee and nothing else and all they wanna do is "get freaky" but maybe that guy is really in to you.If he is really into you he won't try to force u or pressure u in any way to do so.If you decline his invitation then he would simply accept the fact and wouldn't go to other female homo sapien sapiens.
For guys how do you that she is really serious with you? She wouldn't wanna have sex with you until your married.Boys, it isn't easy for a girl to give up herself just yet, and if you wait it is going to be worth the wait.
Sex is a good load of 30% important but after marriage.After all just think about the great happiness u will get when you go to heaven when you stay away from fornication.The feelings are much pure and lovely.

*So Ali I don't think it raises much question

Love....

Love is a word described with so many adjectives and all.But a lot of us don't really know the true meaning of the word love. I met quite a lot of guys who said 'I don't want to touch you merely because I love you' whilst others said 'If you love me,you will have sex with me' and some rare but true cases 'I wanna leave you because I love you and I dont want you to get hurt'. But somehow I always found a new way to realize that they don't givva rats*ss abt me.

Byron, Child harold said and I quote"there for some feelings time cannot numb" Exact meaning is unknown but I think that it means even thought centuries come and go,there are some feelings time cannot stop.Love is the ultimate word tossed arnd these days.When we see a hot hot guy or chik we say "I totally love him/her" A lot of us come to the conclusion that we are in love or some of us refer to as Love at first when we see someone who catches your eye.And eventhough you all will disagree with me right now you know its totally true when i say that most of us will leave the so called love one when there is danger to your ownself.Its not bad infact I say its good cuz we should protect ourselves to protect others but it still doesn't answer the unversal question ...WHAT THE HELL IS LOVE???

Butterfly

Somedays when Im all lost and confused with nowhere to go I just look at the butterflies and wish i could spread my wings and fly away...sad thing is that I was lead to beleive my whole that i wasn't a butterfly instead a moth.And I just went on beleiveing it. This was the fault of no one except mine. In my pictures and my movies I used to see a butterfly which was me.This buttefly gurl i used to see was me but a different one.She was full of confidence and humor and sparkle of life in her eyes.We had the same looks but she wasn't me.She was a happier version of me.I was so much different to the girl in the pictures I had no confidence or humor and my eyes were dull and empty like a bottom-less pitt. But I met a guy and he told me that I was a butterfly just ready to show my colours. He asked me the reason why I never showed my colourfull wings and he said that I radiated the most beatiful thing ever..Life. I did show my colourful wings and the other butterflies Which i used to be intimidated by are now intimidated by me...Thanks wiloo

The best things..

The best things in life come when u least expect it.Whether its a small appreciation, gesture of love, the gift of trust or just a plain shoulder to rest ur head on.The best things in life is said to be this because at the end of the day these small things make big differences.
Also the best things in life come in series....like enemies->friendship->love and prison break. The best thing they don't last forever if u neglect them but they will fly just a centimeter away from ur reach..learn to appereciate the small things that make you laugh, for the big things they won't wait forever but the small things--the memories will always linger.If we just knew how to accept the small things....